How Did This Happen

On September 9th,1992, I gave birth to my first child. A beautiful baby boy that has been the center of my entire world for these 16 years. I admit to you that I have been very selfish with him; not wanting to share him with anyone. He slept with me from birth, never wanting to sleep in his own bed. When my husband went to California for 3 months to preach, David was only 3 months old. I did not feel comfortable leaving home for that long of a time.... being new to this mom thing; so we stayed home, just the two of us. He road in his car seat in the front seat.[ no one told us we weren't supposed to then] He held my hand everywhere we went. We shared everything. Over the years other brothers and sisters would come along; but not alot has changed for David and I. Oh, he may shave now, and look around for girls; but the bond we have always shared is still so very strong. I recently came to a new conclusion though... I have a serious problem!!! How am I going to keep him at home?? I have begun to make a list of possible ways to prevent my son from leaving home and breaking his mommy's heart.After all he told me when he was 3 and a 1/2 that he would never grow up and he would never leave home. So in reality this is all his fault and I can not be held responcible for my actions! At the top of my list is failing him in high school for the next 5 years. That would certainly buy me some time. Next, I could most certainly ground him for the next 3 years for lying to me all those years when he said that he would never love anyone else. Also a very good option to explore is having his eye-glass perscription lowered so that he will not be able to see any other reason for leaving home. I have also recently subscribed to the magazine entitled," 25 Ways to Keep Your Adolecent From Growing Up." It has been baned in 20 states but not Alabama. It has some very good ideas as well; which include but are not limited to: getting your child to sign a binding document that will keep him in your home until the age of 35. I figure I have invested alot of money in him and it is only fair that he stay around and help support the rest of these children he calls brothers and sisters. As I further explore my possibilities, I would just like to say to David," Son, I love you so much. I know that God has great plans for you. You have made your father and I so proud of you as you surrender your life to do HIS will. I have no greater joy than to know you are willing to do whatever GOD lays out in front of you. I rest peacefully each night knowing that GOD loves you more than I do, and HE will keep you where you need to be. David, I am reminded now that GOD never promised me how long I would get to keep you. In HIS perfect plan HE may call you home to heaven tomorrow. Should that happen: my heart would break in two, but only because I would miss you so much. I would however be so thankful for all the moments of time that my heavenly father gave you to me; to love, to hold, to kiss, to hug and to teach about Jesus Christ, who gave HIS life for you and for me. Move forward son. Give every day you have to GOD. Don't waste one moment looking back. Keep your eyes on Jesus for HE is the only one who will never let you down. Live your life with no regrets. Live today like you won't have tomorrow. Most of all know that I love you ever so much and I wouldn't trade the past sixteen years for anything in this world. I look forward to the next sixteen years you spend at home with me. I love you son and please remember if you wake up one morning and you are shackled to your bed...... I did it for your own good. After all ,you did make a promise."