How Did This Happen

On September 9th,1992, I gave birth to my first child. A beautiful baby boy that has been the center of my entire world for these 16 years. I admit to you that I have been very selfish with him; not wanting to share him with anyone. He slept with me from birth, never wanting to sleep in his own bed. When my husband went to California for 3 months to preach, David was only 3 months old. I did not feel comfortable leaving home for that long of a time.... being new to this mom thing; so we stayed home, just the two of us. He road in his car seat in the front seat.[ no one told us we weren't supposed to then] He held my hand everywhere we went. We shared everything. Over the years other brothers and sisters would come along; but not alot has changed for David and I. Oh, he may shave now, and look around for girls; but the bond we have always shared is still so very strong. I recently came to a new conclusion though... I have a serious problem!!! How am I going to keep him at home?? I have begun to make a list of possible ways to prevent my son from leaving home and breaking his mommy's heart.After all he told me when he was 3 and a 1/2 that he would never grow up and he would never leave home. So in reality this is all his fault and I can not be held responcible for my actions! At the top of my list is failing him in high school for the next 5 years. That would certainly buy me some time. Next, I could most certainly ground him for the next 3 years for lying to me all those years when he said that he would never love anyone else. Also a very good option to explore is having his eye-glass perscription lowered so that he will not be able to see any other reason for leaving home. I have also recently subscribed to the magazine entitled," 25 Ways to Keep Your Adolecent From Growing Up." It has been baned in 20 states but not Alabama. It has some very good ideas as well; which include but are not limited to: getting your child to sign a binding document that will keep him in your home until the age of 35. I figure I have invested alot of money in him and it is only fair that he stay around and help support the rest of these children he calls brothers and sisters. As I further explore my possibilities, I would just like to say to David," Son, I love you so much. I know that God has great plans for you. You have made your father and I so proud of you as you surrender your life to do HIS will. I have no greater joy than to know you are willing to do whatever GOD lays out in front of you. I rest peacefully each night knowing that GOD loves you more than I do, and HE will keep you where you need to be. David, I am reminded now that GOD never promised me how long I would get to keep you. In HIS perfect plan HE may call you home to heaven tomorrow. Should that happen: my heart would break in two, but only because I would miss you so much. I would however be so thankful for all the moments of time that my heavenly father gave you to me; to love, to hold, to kiss, to hug and to teach about Jesus Christ, who gave HIS life for you and for me. Move forward son. Give every day you have to GOD. Don't waste one moment looking back. Keep your eyes on Jesus for HE is the only one who will never let you down. Live your life with no regrets. Live today like you won't have tomorrow. Most of all know that I love you ever so much and I wouldn't trade the past sixteen years for anything in this world. I look forward to the next sixteen years you spend at home with me. I love you son and please remember if you wake up one morning and you are shackled to your bed...... I did it for your own good. After all ,you did make a promise."

A Moment of Triumph

My husband purchased a cartoon for our children. Please make a mental note of the fact that my husband did indeed purchase the said video I will now speak of. It was a very plain looking video called,"Mark Twain." I put it in for the children to watch and went to lie down, in the hopes that my medicine would knock me out cold!! I lay awake unable to sleep,but just as I was drifting off....the light in my room was thrown on and six children came bounding into my room. Where did Daddy get that movie? Did you know that they had the devil look us? Mommy, they said Adam and Eve wore clothes all the time? Heaven wasn't Heaven and Hell wasn't Hell. Those are just a few of the things they were shouting out at me. If I have ever wondered if my children were paying attention. If I ever wondered if they know the truth. I do not wonder now. When Daddy came home we scratched the fire out of our new DVD and then threw it in the trash. Good job kids!! [and keep listening]

Mommy is Sick

I haven't felt this sick since the last time I was sick. My body aches. My head hurts. Worst of all...I can't breathe. This is worse for me than anything else because I am claustrophobic. Not being able to breathe creates an incredible sense of panic for me. It takes all my self control not to run out into the streets screaming,"Somebody help me!!I can't breathe!!!!" I have taken all the recommended dosages of medicines the law will allow and still I can not breathe. Just when I thought I would lose my mind;two sweet little arms rap around my neck and a precious little voice whispers,"Mommy,I love you and I will pray Jesus makes you all better!" Like magic that the medicine could not bring.....I feel all better now. No, I still can't breathe;but that doesn't matter any more. Thank you, Cassie.

How Did He Do That

I am so proud of myself. I have, in six months, taught myself everything there is to know about a computer. I have learned how to use Messenger, and have taught some of my blond friends to use it as well. I can down-load and actually find the files. I have come a long ways from the girl who crashed her first computer within ten minutes of getting it.
I purchased and installed, all by myself ,a children's program that claimed it would keep my children safe. This program is so concerned about my child's safety and the safety of my computer,that the children can't even get out of the safety program to access other files on the computer. This is great I told myself. Now Daddy can't blame the kids when something goes wrong with the computer. All will be well!!!
It has been two days now. The kids love it. I love it. Until.......Jonathan couldn't access something he wanted to. I was too busy to put my password in. Jonathan types in a code. Bingo!!!! He leaves the safety of the child's program and off to the Internet it goes. His older brothers are screaming how did you do that??? I am asking do you know my password. Then everyone looks at me and says," I thought you said it wouldn't do that!!!" Was it coincidence? Does he know my password? Did the computer program malfunction? We may never know. All Jonathan does is shrug his shoulders.